think when you ask girls which part they’re disatisfied about themselves, they’ll probably list down a whole bunch of stuff. probably that would then lead to things like plastic surgery, liposuction, anything that would make them to be the potrayed beauty that has been casted by the world and even barbie dolls. perhaps that is why we potray beauty as – lean, tall, hourglass, long hair, big eyes, small face, nose that frames the face, lips thats akin to angelina jolie. doesnt that just sounds like barbie? HAHAHA!

i do admit that many a times i fall into insecurity when i unknowingly measure myself towards that standard. as i ask girls who are so beautiful, they too fall into such insecurity and nothing is ever enough. we can never be tall enough, slim enough, features as sharp enough, skin as good enough, etc. because there’ll always someone prettier. if we live by the world’s standards, we find ourselves chasing like a dog towards its tail. 4 words: it is never enough.

[Proverbs 31:30]
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

physical beauty is only but awhile. when age catches up, there’s no running from it. our skin sag, we gain weight, we lose the color of our rosy cheeks, wrinkles start appearing. but character is longlasting. that is why our God is wise. he looks at the heart, never the outward appearance. 🙂 therefore females (me included), place our security not on our looks (though you’re real gorgeous! ;)) but in building up our love and character towards him the Father. stop pursuing and attracting the wrong attention and audience (mainly males and making other women jealous). the fight will only end up in fatigue and neverending disatisfaction. and males, pretty things and girls are indeed attractive (especially with you being more visual) but choose for yourselves the things that will endure even after 50 years. because there’ll surely be someone prettier along the way and i fear for your r/s and marriage.

alrighty, this is just something recent that kept me thinking. loads of updates! 🙂

my bazaar @ SMU:me and pig joanne. we had loads of fun together though i was chionging project and managing the flea, it was a good time!

as you can see, i was being tortured.

but all in all, thank you for those who came by to support us. 🙂 thanks lestari (did i get your name right?), kalyne, andrew, yeu ann, christine, serene, ophelia, yen li, and especially zai. i hope i didnt miss anyone out! heh! it was a success! thank you all. 😉

recent service: caregroup girls missing jesline! =(

my beloved chermaine who just finished exams! whoots! whoosh! sorry i had to postpone shepherding my dear. =p

ophy and i while waiting to prepare holy comm! 😀

shemmy’s amazing race!: the whole CG without ryan and including my big face at the front.

hehe! shemmy, i like to scam you! totally makes my day. 😉

really want to share about my bad good week! it started out bad cause of the many misunderstandings that occured all in one day. wow, nearly took away my soul. but as the week goes, it was really eventful. gave towards the church building fund in hope that we can go through this crisis together. hope singapore is my home and its where i’ve grown up. second major move since nexus! im sure God will work out everything according to his plan. joyful giving to the Lord and his house! 😀 if you treat Hope the way i do, please give too! i believe every small amount counts. 🙂

meeting up with renhui is so awesome as we shared our learnings about the recent article in straits times “the rise of Christ in china” so prompt that she’s a shanghainese. 🙂 shared about our perspectives towards issues as well. thanks so much for opening up to me my sheep! i feel very comfortable with you as well. 😀 shemmy’s bday celebration is a time where i feel the warmth of the cg as well. even as we prepare, i guess we all received sth in return as well.

was the guest guitarist for bentay’s cg. though it was pretty last min, i enjoyed my time working with peu and the cg too! well, i do admit that all these giving of time, effort, money, heart, mind, soul really drains us, the joy is just unspeakable! 😀 my next one week will be projects madness. so i hope to update this space soon! see you when i see you!